Oh.

보고싶다.

Probably the end.

Yeap.

This is probably my last post in this blog. This blog has too many memories I want to erase.
Worry not, I'm still blogging but not in this one or in the Savannah's.


Anyways, thank you for the time spent here.

Goodbye.

Beginning or the end?

Happy New Year to the world!

So I spent the beginning of a new year watching A Lot Like Love. It was a good movie except I didn't want to find back the old 'lover'. 

Also once it was midnight I prepared myself to sleep. Thinks I actually left the movie playing while I was in bed. 

Well actually I was alone at home. With no food and no company. So I just lazed around and did nothing for like 3-4 days? I'd call it heaven! Catched up with my EXO dosage and other korean dramas. (Not that I was interested in the dramas lately but for a change of 느낌)  

So, new year means new resolution? 

아. 이건 싫어요. 아~ 그래...새가해요.

1. Weight은 빼고

2. 공부 잘하고

3. 내 마음이 다치게하지 않는다

4. 다 좋아하는 사람들이 만나고 싶어요

 마지막 위. 순수한 사랑을 기다립니다. 끝!

Silence

The more I want to be alone the more I wish I have someone next to me. 

The semester is about to come to its end and in few days time I'll be home with my family. So many things needed to be done; meeting up with new friends, watching movies, shopping etc.

I wonder how you were doing. I was that close to text you but I'm scared I might be another burden. 

아. 몰라요. 

Birthday month!

So last tuesday was my birthday.

The previous weekend, I had replacement class for Public Health and spent the rest of the day amending tables/research results. Finished the whole thing in 5hours solid. Then I thought I would wanna go straight to bed but Syamim ajak to have coffee at Coffee Beans nearby Gurney. Then coincidently we bumped into 4 colleagues who were also lepaking but in Starbucks. Then since I haven't been socialising that much we decided to stay for a bit-until 1am actually. LOL

Then on Sunday there was a Breast Cancer Awareness Campaign and I participated in the Walkathon. It was pretty fun and the weather wasn't scorching hot. I zumba-ed and took pictures with the surgeons and in the end had blisters all over my heels. 

Monday came by so fast! Now I'm in a new rotation-Medicine but the departments I'm in are Nephrology, Infectious Disease/Rheumatology/Gastroenterologyand Neurology. The other big three departments will be during my final year. 

Tuesday, D-day I turned 23! The night before I slept super early so I wasn't aware of who actually wished me. In the morning I went to the Nephro ward and clerked one patient before going for my eye appoinment. Waited for atleast an hour before I could get my number and another half an hour before the doctor called my name. The IOP is still quite high but has reduced since last month. Previously was 25 and today was 18. The normal pressure would be below 10 if I'm not mistaken. The doctor checked my angle glaucoma but I didn't get to aswhether it's a closed or open angle glaucoma. She asked me to continue taking the eyedrops and come in on April next year to check if my visual field is reducing. 

In the evening, I stayed in the ward and just read the case reports. I didn't get to see Dr Fred anywhere. 😞 For dinner, we went to Sushi Tei! 

There was a new trainee and he's cute! 

On Friday I went to see my Ortho doctor and she told me it might be a meniscus problem. I aske her if I might be having connective tissue disease (look up on it if you want to know further!) and she asked me what other symptoms do I have. I told her about my glaucoma, sinusitis, my throbbing headache and also my joints problem. She ordered blood investigations but I can't do them yet because I'm heading off to Taiping next week. 

Well, I am heading there now as I'm typing this post. 

PS: why didn't I get any wish from you? Who said 'let's be friends!' 😌

One busy week.

Last week practically drained my energy to the max.

After hospital everyday with extra programmes in between, I was busy finishing off my slides and portfolio. Also there's another essay I should write and I haven't yet :(

The whole week last week I didn't get to see Dr 'Fred' but I was in the same lift as Dr Aff. And I know for sure he looked at me twice. LOL! Anyways, I'll be going to the physio again today. Seems like my knees and thighs aren't getting any better. Maybe I'll stop going to physio and just do Insanity at home. My Pengajian Islam class will end this week and next week I'll be having my finals. WeeHoo~

Last Saturday I went for a hike organized by PMC's Photo Soc. A total of 30 med students went. Basically all are from my year. I supposed they noticed me being very quiet so some of them tried making small talks with me which I find it very thoughtful of them. But to be honest, I was actually quite surprised that I was really really quiet. Also, when we arrived at the Taman Negara then only I noticed that I didn't bring my inhaler with me and I forgot to wear my knee guard. I was in a rush (as I woke up late) to send Leslie to the bus station. But all was well :) I didn't get that breathless but they can tell I breathed heavily.

While I was catching up with the front group (I was often get left in the middle alone as the front group was too fast and the back group was too slow) I encountered a few outsiders along the way. While I passed by them, one guy kind of jeering me for wearing jeans for hiking and calling me 'weird'. As it was raining heavily I didn't pay much attention to it (also, he was saying it in a different slang) until the words finally registered in my head. When I stopped and the outsiders walked pass me I just gave him a sharp stare and scolded back in Korean(second nature to do that =/ ). One of my male colleague was also wearing jeans and he too got pissed when he knew about it. Well, that's one bad situation I came across.

But there were also good/funny situations- One high school student wanted to help me send me back to the base camp. LOL! And another Indian school boy eagerly helped me climb down the hill. It was so funny but I just laughed to myself as I was always left alone. When I told the stories to my friend, he was like maybe because I looked like a high school student- being all small and cute. LOL!


After the hiking, the people I carpooled with went to Gurney for Seoul Garden and I ate ALOT! I had mostly lamb and that somehow made me feel dizzy and having headache. I was knackered and slept pretty early that night.




Anyways, I should go get ready for hospital. Gotta remind myself that I have physio appointment today and also an essay to write. Plus, I'll be having my assessment by the end of the week.


Nadie's birthday is coming soon! I want to be home but then I remembered that my friends are coming over :(


PS: Me during the hike!

I need to lose more fat. I've been lacking in exercise thanks to my knees.
Also my English is getting horrible! I need to read more books!
*Because when I speak, people tend to label me :( *

PSS:

sisters weekend.

Yups, Nazreen and Nadirah were in Penang last weekend! Salahuddin, my nephew, was here too. OMG, he's soooo naughty and kept scolding me! Believe it!


They stayed over at Feringghi but I didn't spend the night there. Wouldn't wanna get sicker being around Salahuddin. Plus, I'm still coughing and having flu. So, basically I was their driver for the weekend.











Anyways, I need to go and do my slides for presentation tomorrow.
Write soon!















PS: Dr Affendi and I were in the same lift. And he looked at me twice! He-he. But didn't see Fred anywhere :(

PSS:

Finally...

The fever resolved on its own. The only problem that's bugging me now is the coughing and my forever flu. Worry not, I've been a good girl and took my medication on time!


Did I mention about a Medical Officer in Orthopaedics Department? Let's call him Fred. Yeah, so yesterday I saw him at our college's compound. Apparently there was a conference going on and that explained why the parking lot was full. I just came back from lunch and since I wasn't well, I asked my guy friend to drive my car to college. When I saw him standing with friends I began to laugh and being all happy and actually forgotten that I was sick. LOL!  Well, me being me, I didn't dare to look at him. Shy la konon. HA HA!


And again today- I thought I was late for bedside teaching so I rushed through the hospital's multistorey parking lot and had to go all the way up to fifth floor till I finally got myself a space to park. Since I need to take my morning medication, I'd normally drive to hospital first then take my meds in the car before heading to the wards. To my surprise I saw Fred walked infront of my car and he turned his head towards my car. For once, I hated my blurry vision because I can't see him if he was actually looking at my car (or me) or elsewhere :(

That somehow cheered me up a little. I thought I'll start my day badly but it didn't.

Also, I was actually pissed at some of my groupmates. They are so kiasu I hate it! We were supposed to do our Assessment on Ophthalmoscopy by the end of this week. Luckily, I had mine just now and got myself a stamp for doing the assessment well :)

Another good day for me.



Right now, I'm feeling so much better than before. Phlegm is still yellow  though :(
I've cleaned up my room, folded my laundry, changed my bedsheets, showered and ready to do some slides for next week's presentation. Too many things to do tonight.

Oh it is also Hermione Granger's birthday today!!! :D

  THE BRIGHTEST WITCH OF HER AGE!

PS: Fred looked like Seo In Guk alot! He's tall and has chinese features :))) So I'm listening to his latest song on repeat.

hachooooohhh!

there we go again.
this is the only problem whenever i'm back in JB.
i've been sneezing the whole day and ended up being all sick :(


should be leaving for KL tomorrow morning and then off to Penang; Nadie might be following me.
She's most likely to return to Cairo mid-October.

i have my portfolio to finish :( and i haven't done much about it :(

okay, write more when i'm back in Penang.

PS: I miss ChanYeol :(

more writing to do...

and then I'll be in KL!!!! :D

Sarah's driving down to KL so I'll be following her. I think Farzad will too.

Also, I'll be meeting Dad this weekend!!!!! I am actually quite excited about seeing him. And probably because Salahuddin is following as well.

If Salahuddin giving problem while driving, most likely I'll take over the wheel and drive to Johor.









Oh btw, please stop loving me...
I know I'll love you forever but you have to stop loving me, okay?
Promise?





















PS: been having a good day so far. but right now i'm craving for sushi. LOL!

It's okay. I guess I'll just have to eat him :p My baby ChanYeol ~~~~~~~~ <3 br="">

make a long weekend short...

I COULD HAVE GONE DOWN TO KL TO SEE EXO LIVE!


But I didn't and that saddened me alot!
I really wanna meet ChanYeol and give him a present. I wish I did. I wish I could turn back time. I wish I was brave enough to diss my friends for him. I wish... I wish...


Lord ain't giving me what I want. I deserve the great weekend after my terrible OSCE.
*sigh*

Pabo Shanaz. Pabo chincha.
:(((



























PS: Chanyeol, ah~ saranghaeyo! ^_^

A long long day...

Yups! It was.

In the morning, we had our teaching and it's based on cardiothoracic surgery. Since I was with Dad for at least a month during my break before, I could basically answered most of the questions asked by the surgeon to a point where he had to shut me up. LOL!

Then in the afternoon, we had our end of rotation OSCE and I supposed I did pretty bad. Grrrr~ Not enough exposure :( I'll probably gonna continue clerking at the surgery ward and practice presenting my cases to the MOs/Specialists. I must!

After OSCE, there was a replacement lecture and the whole lot of surgery students got scolded for doing the osce badly. I really wanted to cry :( I wish I did better just now :(


Anyways, Sarah's friend came over. We both picked her up from the airport and went to Kapitan for dinner.



As I was typing this... my eyelids are getting heavier. Syamim's having a bit of makan-makan tomorrow and I'll be helping her preparing etc.
I had my portion of EXO's songs so I'm all ready for a good night sleep :)






















PS: ChanYeol, I love you. Tiger, I miss you. Life, I super hate you. ^_^

turning into a nerd who is not so nerd.

Heyyy,

I'll be having my surgical and ortho OSCE this Friday.
It has been a rather bad week. well, not that bad but I feel like I wanna be home this weekend :(




Anyways, gonna be pretty hectic preparing and revising.
Write more later!

Need a break.

I had totally lost it today. I have no passion in continuing this whole medical life. Why must I stuck in a rather bad group who selfishly think of themselves only. Yeah, scholars attitude-that's what they all have. I can't fcuking tolerate such personalities. I know they want to be the forever kiasu people but yeah... Fine.


I wish them the best.



Thinks I need to get involve with other type of people. I miss my frisbee gang where they don't judge you for being you. But with my condition- and my other leg is hurting now- I'll probably stuck with the same people again and again.


Or is it me? I guess it must be my personality then. Well, people normally talk bad about me anyways. 휴~









왜 이렇게 처럼? :-( 너무 힘들었어요...

medical student problem

Heyyyy,

Sorry was away for a long long time! Over a week wasn't it?
Last week was probably one of the busiest week I ever had. There's a special week where every member of a group has to sign in the logbook by 0745 and sign out at 1230. So basically I have to wake up early in the morning but since I've been staying up late to finish of my tutorials and case reports, waking up early isn't something to look forward to.

We were to send in 5 case reports by the week. To my surprise, I was overly hardworking- clerked two patients a day for 3 days! (which I would have never done previously, mainly due to my laziness ofcourse)

A female patient that I've clerked really love to see me in the morning as I was following up with her since the beginning. Such honour :) But she has just been discharged today :( And I didn't get to say goodbye cause I was observing procedures at that time. Oh well, hope she recovers fast and well!

Oh, the 5 case reports I handed them already. And for the first time I did them beforehand, not last minute work! Yayyers!



Oh, one new thing you should know about me. I consulted my Ortho surgeon and told her about my knees and stuff- she diagnosed me with myalgia. (On a different note, I met two Medical Officers that I have my eyes on! One is Chinese looking but Muslim and another has a Chinese surname and Chinese looking too. But... Oh well. )

So last Monday I was scheduled for physiotherapy and there's muscle wasting on my left thigh. Did some exercises but my knee joint is still so painful even today. My next appointment will be on Friday.





Anyways, last weekend I was home in KL. Went to Farah's open house. The day before I thought about how we used to arrange what color to wear to her open house. LOL! But I was there only for a while since I need to rush back to Penang. I couldn't stay long and plus the friends that I know aren't that much.


Anyways, I'll try and update more but since I'm in my Surgery rotation, my weeks can go pretty hectic. Next week we'll be having our assessment! Oh Lord, so much to do!


Wish me luck!



PS: I dedicate a song for you- Anywhere but here by Safetysuit. It meant nothing really. It's just a song I love to hear and I thought I wanted to share with you. Only.

A short getaway.

Guess where I am while I typed this out?

I'm in Taiping!!!!

Well, it is not technically a getaway; we were posted here for our surgical rotation for 5 days. Since I had my resits, I could only managed two days of teaching. It was supposed to be three days but I missed on Wednesday because of my laziness- woke up late, got lost somewhere before arriving in Taiping, tired and just plain lazy. HAHAHA!

Anyways, today is the last day and I have always wanted to visit the Zoo Taiping! And I get to see tigersssss~ Rawrrrr~ Obviously I am looking forward to other animals like elephants, snakes etc. I shall see if I could handle the spiders; since well, I claimed that I am allergic to them. *scratch eyes*

Oh oh, did I mention EXO's coming to Malaysia for MTV World Stage this year? I hope I could see them in person, especially ChanYeol my only baby wolf!!!! ㅋㅋㅋ I am sooo into him and his deep voice and his eyes and his long back and his elf-like ears and his cheesy smile and his child-like behaviour and his talent in rapping, playing guitar and beatboxing and his cheekiness, oh my God I can go on forever to be honest. Feels like I'm in love with him! :p But... He's 2 years younger than me. Oh well, call me a cougar!

During my resits, I had his name written in Korean on each question paper! LOL! A girl could only dream big to actually meet her beloved man.

Okay, I'm leaving for hospital soon and then maybe if we aren't tired might just go to the zoo and then only head back to Penang.

See you again in Penang then! Love you much!

It was Raya day.

Hey,
How have you been doing? Anyways, it was Eidul Fitri yesterday. Spend the whole day helping in the kitchen and visiting relative's houses. Pretty much knackered that I went to sleep early.

I'm back in KL this afternoon because sister and brothers are working and I have to prepare going back to Penang soon; might be driving up alone on Sunday or Monday. My exam repeat paper is on next Tuesday. Pray for me!!! How are things over at your side? 





Here's a picture of me and Ikmal during our Raya day.

PS: no chance to meet you I suppose... Hope you're doing alright. :)

break a leg

heyyyyy

im back in KL. have been busy. even now. thought i should drop by and say heyyyyy. LOL!





take care you.

Need a break.

Hello!

Sorry I haven't been blogging much recently.
Last week was the beginning of my surgery rotation but we were posted in the Orthopaedics Department. It was pretty hectic.
Anyways, starting tomorrow I'll be driving to Seberang Jaya for Ortho and Surgery rotation. And Raya break next week!



Come up to Penang this week! Then I'll be driving down to KL so you can follow me back. LOL! Holiday starting on the 3rd- for a week! My repeat paper will be the week after... So many things to do in between! :S









































PS: I hope you're doing well.

one hell of a week!

Hello!

It's exams week this week. My last paper is tomorrow. Well, not really last paper but I'll be having my surgery long case! So so so nervous and unprepared! Surgery plus ortho together and you can get any patient within those two fields! Ortho part is what I'm more unprepared for- the special tests and reasonings. When people asked me did I want surgery instead of medicine long case? I was like... I didn't want any of them! LOL!

Forth year first sem is like hell on earth! I don't know if I could survive this... I hope I could though.









Will write more after tomorrow. Or weekend. Or next week. Or....

























PS: I am head over heels for EXO Chanyeol!!!!!!!! Gonna master their choreography of Wolf!