A sister. Pretty much a best friend.

Goood Luuuck for ur upcoming exams!

Although we are million miles away apart from each other, my prayers will be always wif u.
miss our good old days.

forget me, NOT!
love yaa alwayss♥♥♥
*cyber hugs*

Jazakillah Unnie! :D
Miss you already!

Sami Yusuf-Asma Allah

In the most difficult moments I had in life, this just stopped the whole commotion and depression.

"If you want to talk to Allah, then pray salah. If you want Allah to talk to you, then read the Quran"

The silent whispers.

Someone small caught my attention lately. I am definitely nowhere comparable. My life is so completely diverted as if I have no navigator. I realised sometimes I have abstracted somewhere else. Like there are no directions, no maps. At times, I was lost. Lost and never could find my way back again. Lost and never be found. Lost and forgotten. However, when you are lost that's when you turn to HIM, The Al-Mighty. HE would show me my way back home. Show me the truest path I should follow. I know I should just go straight but then again, I'm only a human. The whispers of Satan sometimes won my heart though the imaan within me should stay stronger. I'm only a human. A fragile ones.

My only wish is that for HIM to forgive me. One said before, "Keep begging God to forgive you". And that's exactly what I will do. You will never know about the hereafter. All you could do is just to prepare for it. Prepare for the eternity. Either you enter Jannah forever or live a hell of a life. For my brothers and sisters both Muslims and Non-Muslims, I pray to God to forgive you. I pray that you will find the right path to HIM. I pray to God to place you amongst those who will enter Jannah.

"O Lord, my sins are like the highest mountain, my good deeds are so few. I turn to you, my heart full of shame, my eyes full of tears. Bestow Your mercy upon me" May Allah bless you all! Ameen.

 

 

I secretly wish that I will see all of you in Jannah, Insha'Allah.

 

 

My Heart’s calling.

How do I even begin? After all this little heart of mine kept it all in itself. Sometimes I wish I could really let them all out- telling what's in my head, expressing my true feelings and stating what's right with me or what's wrong with you. Being in this city itself is a whole new life. Different backgrounds, different cultures, different believes. I thought my nawaytu has been declared from beginning. Why, then do I feel uneasy? Why do I grieve? Why every time a sigh is heard? At times, tears roll down my cheeks. Even then, I don't know why it happened. But one thing held me strong- faith. The only faith left. The only hope left. The only happiness left. Honestly, I wouldn't be who I am now without the One. HE helped me through thick and thin. HE soothed me with the clouds of my favourite. HE cheered me with the smiles of little kids. HE protected me with the wings of HIS angels.

How beautiful it is to have someone who knows everything about you. I don't have to say a word and HE knows it very well. Even in the darkness of time HE sent me HIS light. HE showed the best path for me. HE led me to the garden of patience and courage.

I may be one of the people who disobeyed, who are sinned, and who made HIM angry. I may be the one HE will never forgive, never blessed, and never loved. But one thing for sure, I believe in HIM. I know HE knows and that's all matter. I don't need others to tell me how I should feel towards HIM. Probably as a reminder, yes. But to tell me how, I myself alone know how to feel.

 

I’ll think about it later.

Last weekend (April 24^th-25^th) was the Clinical Emergencies Conference. It was held at Bayview Beach Resort, Penang. I supposed I was the youngest participant there. I went with Kak Amira Anis, Chiang Wen, Hong and Ryan. Wei-Lyn was there early in the morning for registration. Amin and Mark came later on. Honestly, I was freaking sleepy during the lectures. I can't help it but to fall asleep. Well, I did a good job in my sitting posture; didn't even fall off the chair at all. LOL! Besides sleeping, I actually learnt a lot from this conference. The benefit comes in the future though. The conference began on Friday April 23^rd. So, after the conference the PMC Leprechauns had an Ultimate Beach somewhere at Tanjung Bungah. It was a fun evening but I was too exhausted to have fun. We played few rounds of Frisbee and then the boys started throwing each other into the sea. My plan to get the big camera snap my pictures didn't go as it supposed to. Jeff said I was being 'emo' towards the end of the day. Well, yea. I was and I don't care. Before heading back home we all had dinner at Khaleel.

The next day, Kak amira and I were so determined not to fall asleep during the lectures. We bought snacks and coffee into the ballroom. Well, as usual we failed. My eyelids were so heavy to even lift them open! Monkey Da Ke a.k.a Chiang Wen Teo was disappointed when he saw me sleeping. Someone told me that he said the topics that were interesting to him I slept off but the ones he thought they were boring I was wide awake listening. Oh, did I mention earlier that the lunch was superb? We went gaga over the ice-creams! Ha ha! That night, we went for a quick sushi at Sakae Sushi and then Shutter Island to wrap up the night. As a result, Sunday morning I decided not to go for the conference! My body ached so bad that I continued sleeping for another 3 hours :)

Okay, will continue soon. I have to get ready for discs training. More stories to be told.

A day filled with darkness.

"A good word is better than silence and silence is better than evil talks!" - But most of us can't stop ourselves from evil words.

Given a situation where Jane who had lived with Savannah came to removed all her belongings after a month she left the house. Somehow, Jane forgotten to inform Sav that she's coming to take her stuff out from the house. Sava came back and unlocked the main door. She looked puzzled as if someone just broke into the house. Lucky thing she's smart enough to figure out that Jane who came and made the mess. Boiled with anger, Sava called Jane's dad. Sava said it would be polite if they could at least text her or inform her before entering the house or she might consider making a police report. Yes, they paid the rent and all but Jane doesn't stay in the house anymore. The worst thing is they even took some of Sava's belongings like Sava's sister's water bottle and they took along the GREEN bucket which Sava has been using even before Jane moved into the house. Of all things, they left Jane's dead plant behind. What a way to say we came by but this plant is for you. Sava was in deep pain to say the FOUR LETTER WORDS right now but *breathe in, breathe out*. She prefers to just keep it to herself. Take the freaking water bottle which still has water inside that she boiled and the green bucket which doesn't even belong to Jane. Can Sava call it stealing? Taking one's belonging without one's permission is called STEALING and as far as Sava's concern stealing is always wrong. Stealing is the taking of things or being in possession of things that belong to someone else without their permission. Based on Wiki, in criminal law, theft is the illegal taking of another person's property without that person's freely-given consent. In short, Jane is officially a thief including her stupid family.

So, what do you think of this matter? Should Sava make a police report for stealing Sava's belongings without her permission? How about Jane trespassing although she paid the rent without staying? Or should Sava just ignore this case?

Personally, I'm going to ignore this and learn my lesson not to have any connection with Jane anymore. I think it was rude of them for not informing Sava because what if they blame her for taking their stuff and Sava has no idea about it? Another problem is Jane and her family is well-brought up and should have some common sense in dealing with this matter but PERSONALLY they are the worst human beings on Earth for being such irresponsible individuals. They call themselves professionals but they obviously proved to me that they should be working with the sampah people. This is what I think of them. If you don't like it, well, I have all the right to say whatever I want to say because obviously the whole of me belongs to me and no, you didn't pay for it.

 

Anger Kissed My Lips

Monday was the last day for exams and ended the day playing Frisbee. Very tiring but again, this sport is addictive. I hate it when they are so tall surrounding me making it harder for me to pass the disc. Irritating much, hell yea! Tuesday went well. After lab, lepak with Wai Onn in the library. I read a huge book of Psychology while he went for class. Wednesday was the same old thing again. Classes then Frisbee plus my injured ribs-waist. I seriously have to do something with my catching or I'll end up on hospital bed for fracture ribs.

Honestly speaking, i DO NOT agree having them coming for practices. Eeee! Yes, I am selfish but I don't care. I joined it even during examination while you guys complaining for the needs to study hard. Kiss My Awesome Arse.

Anyways, they felt the earthquake. I think the earthquake woke me up though. Scary but Alhamdulillah everything went well that day. I'm bored. Seriously. I'm sick of those faces who are just so fake and ATTENTION SEEKER! (Chill Shanaz...) haihhhh... I have to be patient. Everyone is weird in their own ways and Shanaz, you are good in adapting with them. Remind you, not pretending just adapting.

Oh oh, did I tell you about this dream I dreamt about? It's weird that I dreamt of him. That includes lips and coldness of it. *goosebumps* God, help me to face him the next time I ever see him again. Please Shanaz, DO NOT BLUSH IN FRONT OF HIM! (I hope they can't tell if I'm blushing or what) *fingercrossed*

Okay, I'm done crapping. Supposed to have practice in few minutes and I haven't change! PEN OFF!

Through the rain.

Saturday, April 3^rd was our 4^th Ultimate practice. At 8am we started throwing discs around. Hazwan, Amin's friend came up north to help us out. And there were two guys (probably their friends) stopped by as well. At least I felt much better today than that of last week. Last week was horrible and I couldn't imagine going through those moments again. It was depressing trying to put up fake smiles when you just want to give a long gloomy face. I noticed I smiled a lot yesterday and laughed a lot too.*grins*

After practice, we went to Jalan Transfer to eat breakfast. The roti telur cost about RM4.20. Is that cheap? LOL. Done with breakfast, I head to the Student Centre to study until before the next Frisbee practice. Wai Onn came and did his work as well. Who is Wai Onn? He's a third year student in PMC and I met him during the first Frisbee practice. Apparently, he's the so-called coach? Or is it Amin, the vice president? I don't know and don't want to know. Anyways, he's overall a good guy and really nice to talk to. He's tall, a slow walker, very calm, loves Ultimate and he cannot speak Mandarin. Ha ha! I noticed most of the seniors are like pushing me not to go for RCSI. WHY? Hmm… Oh, who cares what they think. After all, it's my future where there will be only me to go through alone.

Around 3 plus, the other players (Mark, Amin, Hazwan, Lorraine, Sharon and Yun) came to Student Centre. We went to Balik Pulau (45mins by car) to go find that Balik Pulau Sports Complex. We had laksa for our lunch and then we head back to Georgetown. Kamal and Rashid came along soon after we reached PMC. The sky wasn't promising but we played before it started drizzling. When it gets heavier, we head inside and continue with the indoor games. I played pool with Wai Onn, then ping pong with Mark, Amin, Hazwan, Lorraine, Sharon and Wai Onn. But we changed the bats with discs. So we called it the FrisPong. (I think so.) Once it started drizzling again, we went outside and began throwing discs again. I don't know how to say this in words but the whole practice was so funny. All of us practically were laughing all the way through the practice. LOL!

Today there was another practice as well. Did some running and catching but the weather was a bit off today. I was super tired plus I'm losing blood. Oh, yesterday I sort of injured one of my fingers. But I insisted to keep playing. I know I'm stubborn :p I hope it won't get worse though. I still have exams on Monday and I need to write A LOT! Oh well…

Okay, I shall start studying; I think tonight I'll be having dinner outside. SO, I MUST STUDY AS MUCH AS I COULD. Jia You!
Sorry i crapped a lot. i'm super exhausted!

PS: Btw, April 4^th is my LOVE DAY <3 heeee~

Good Friday was a good END!

Woohoo! I'm done with Module 7 and 8.

 

Comments on Module 8:

The only question I cannot do was the one with the effect of sympathetic and parasympathetic system on few organs in the body. I skipped the whole section, no, I was about to read that topic when it was time to enter the exam hall. =.=" but the others I've forgotten some here and there and it's my carelessness. Screw them!

Questions that came out were:

1. Nervous system (B)
   
2. Nitric oxide neurotransmitter transmission (C)
   
3. RC circuit (P)
   
4. Fibrillation (P)
   
5. Artificial pacemaker (P)
   
6. ECG (P)
   
7. Action potential (P)
   
8. Sympathetic and parasympathetic (B)
   
9. Ear (B)
   
10. Time constant
    

Comments on Module 7:

Overall… "No comment"-Simon Yong. One question on alkynes I screwed that one. =p didn't even read through the whole section on alkynes. Some reagents I wrote wrongly. Argh! All I did was careless mistakes. Never mind. I've done my best and now it's the time to just pray to Allah may everything goes right for me :) Insha'Allah.

 

Saturday April 3^rd, 2010

I woke up around 0430. Later in the morning we'll be having Frisbee practice *excited excited* and again at 1700. So, I decided to bring along my notes on Module 10 to revise in the student centre instead of coming back and lazing around not doing anything. Hope it won't rain in the evening because if none of them coming for the evening practice, I'll probably have to walk back home with my heavy bag. Oh, my umbrella! It's with Sarah Liyana :( Never mind, Allah sure will find ways for me to help me ^^

 

Okay, PEN OFF!

Stressful smiles.

Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.

Yes, I know the time is tick-tocking but I'm not ready for exams yet. I thought I could see him today but I supposed each day is different. *sigh* oh well, I'm totally looking forward to the weekends. Although I'm facing the Module 9 and Module 10 on Monday next week but I hope to enjoy the weekend as much as I could. Insya-Allah.

Currently I'm studying Chemistry on the action of Aspirin towards bad COX or also known as the cyclooxygenase. But I still haven't got the whole mechanism in my head yet and it gets annoying when you can't read the notes printed. What more the internet connection in the library broke down. Guess I have to bear with these disabilities for few hours. Instead, I've decided to blog or at least pre-publish this memory before it's forgotten.

My plan for tonight is to study Chemistry like a noob and the next day full speed of Module 8! I really need all the luck that exists in this world. Seriously! Do I sound like I'm joking about luck??? Hell no. I hope everything goes well as planned. Again:

Wednesday, March 31^st: Chemistry Module 7

Thursday, April 1^st: Module 8

Friday, April 2^nd: MID-TERM!

Saturday, April 3^rd: Frisbee @ 8a.m, Module 10

Sunday, April 4^th: Frisbee @ 8a.m, Module 9

Monday, April 5^th: MID-TERM!

Tuesday, April 6^th: Sleeping session! :D

Wednesday, April 7^th: LWCS Critical Thinking Test

Thursday, April 8^th: Maybe Frisbee?

Friday, April 9^th: REST DAY

Saturday, April 10^th: Frisbee Beginners Tourney

Sunday, April 11^th: I want to go for MOVIE- "How to Train Your Dragon"

 

He he... I developed a new hobby: FRISBEE. Oh, remind me to buy the disc and to pay Amin RM10.

Bette rget back to Chemistry or I'll regret later. :\

It is all over again.

 

The one thing I'm really pissed off with is when I'm half way typing, the Microsoft Word suddenly closed. FORK! Let's see if I can recall what I've written in the previous document.

Tears rolled down my cheeks.

It's been awhile since I last blogged about anything at all. Where should I start telling the stories? I'll begin with Benny Oppa's farewell. He took the IMU offer together with two of my classmates, Andrew Chuah and Joanne Lim. I guess they have a great life down in Kuala Lumpur. At least they adapted quickly. Sometimes, I wish they are all here in Penang. Like I said, if you miss anyone look up to the stars because stars look similar everywhere on Earth. No matter how far by looking at stars somehow it makes me feel like I'm really near to that someone. They all left for good after the Chinese New Year holiday break. I went to visit Ayah in Johor with Mommy and Ikmal. I haven't seen him for quite some times already. Hisham started his housemanship in Seremban. He was excited to start working and I hope he's actually happy working as a doctor. After few weeks, "Enjoying this shitty work" was what he wall-ed me on my Facebook! Well bro, no pain no gain aye? Insya-Allah you can go through the obstacles and challenges! Shazli, Nadie and I will be joining you and Kakak soon ;)

HEHE ^^

 

March the busy bee!

March 1^st, I had high fever (41.3°C) together with flu and bad sore throat for about 4 days before I went to the clinic to check my temperature which is on March 1st. On the same time that week, I joined the hip-hop dance team performing for Party in the (car) Park. It's a part of the Fresher's Week event. So happened that I heard the rest of the dance crew fell sick as well. All of them had high fever and sore throat. I'm not sure who spread the virus though. It took me a week to actually gain my strength! Once we recovered, the dance practice resumed. It turned out awesome! We even managed to video clipped a so-called music video in the car park using headlights from two cars and spaces of 4 parking lots. It was hilarious and funny but we all looked cool in the MV ^.^

Songs used:

1. Tick tock by Kesha
   
2. Morning after dark by Timbaland ft SoShy and Nelly Furtado (SoShy's part)
   
3. Eat you up by BoA.
   

Hip-hop Crew:

1. Xiang Yun
   
2. Sylvia
   
3. Lorraine
   
4. Shaaron
   
5. Anne
   
6. Hana
   
7. Atikah Razley
   
8. Sarah Liyana
   
9. Chia Wen
   
10. Shanaz - ME!
    

 

Fresher's GREEN week!

(15.03.10-20.03.10) I'm totally awed by this week! Especially me as I deep myself in GREEN! Oh, so the color that I adore and attracted to. St. Patrick's Day fell on Wednesday 17^th and almost everyone wore GREEN! (See how much I emphasized on the color?! Freaky right? I know!) I had gotten myself hand painting of a weird shamrock and an Ireland flag on my wrist done by a 5^th year senior named Jason Yong. Thanks a lot! On Saturday 20^th, I joined the Amazing Race Penang edition organized by PMCSA. I replaced Yantie since she had something going on that weekend. We were the Turf Club team consist of Kak Hana, Ijah, Asmak and I helped by Atikah Razley and Fitri. It was double tiring than OBS I tell you. I got myself blisters because I wore sandals instead of running shoes. Dumb aren't I? That night was the concert. The hip-hop dance was the first to perform. Few other performances such as singing by few fellow seniors, choir group and Professors as well as Korean hip-hop dance by the 3^rd years and a fan Chinese dance. Lucky draws are given out and I won the Clinical Emergency Conference held at Bayview Beach Resort on the April 22^nd to 25^th . Hisham asked me to go and so I decided to attend the conference. The problem right now is I have no transport to get my ass up north to that hotel. Shyte! This is plain embarrassing! Will have to ask around for transport and this makes me look like I'm begging for help. Argh! Just hate it when all these come one after another.

PS: wear G.R.E.E.N often please! At least I did ;)

 

Flying discs in the air.

Frisbee is a sport. LOL! I have no idea what to write about this one yet. I attended few practices taught by Amin and Wai Onn. So far, I only LOVE the forehand throws. Just FOREHAND THROWS! Backhand is a huge NO NO for me. I suck at it and if you don't believe me I'll show to you one day. Just make sure you don't laugh out loud. They said backhand is easier than forehand. Now I'm laughing out loud! :D April 10^th is the Ultimate Tourney for Beginners. I wish to play though but last weekend (27^th and 28^th) was one of my worse weekends ever. Oh, Saturday 27^th was the Basketball Tournament for charity.

Players: Sheri Lim, Chia Wen, Sarah Liyana and Shanaz

ARGH! The thought of it just makes me want to scream my lungs out! I thought Sunday could lift my mood up but I guess it gotten worsens and I was cold to everyone around me. Swear to God, I really tried being cheerful and it's tiring to fake things you don't want to do. ENOUGH ABOUT THAT SHANAZ! Back to Frisbee; I was quiet the whole morning and I registered myself for the second team. We're having practices again this Saturday and Sunday. (Put up a huge grin) I'm going to enjoy that weekend! Yes, I will!

(Deep thoughts)

MIDTERM!

Urgh, another obstacle I have to go through. Module 7 and Module 8 are on Friday, April 2^nd while Module 9 and Module 10 are on Monday, April 5^th. Wish me luck yea!

Lately I've been studying in the cold icy library. I guess my blood will get frozen if I stay there without getting off the chair. Besides studying of course there are other things that makes me smile like I saw my eye-candies from far or they're right next to me or they're walking around or they're sitting down or something! HAHA >.< I'm having so much FUN and I'm actually enjoying all these.

[I miss Tiger. It's been two months since I met you. Let's Sushi King please!]

PEN OFF!

 

 

 

 

    

Something from facebook

Dear Shanaz Shemma S, below are your Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Your view on yourself:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are down-to-earth
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : People like you because you are so straightforward
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You like serious
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Smart
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Determined people
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You don't judge a book by its cover
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : So good-looking people aren't necessarily your style
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship
The seriousness of your love:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : So you will find yourself with plenty of dates
Your views on education:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Education is very important in life
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You want to study hard
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Learn as much as you can
The right job for you:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You need to choose something
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Go for it to be happy
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Achieve success
How do you view success:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of failure
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous
What are you most afraid of:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are concerned about your image
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : The way others see you
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : It's time for you to believe in who you are
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Not what you wear

Remember?

I love the way you look at me even when you don't think I'm watching.
I love the way you smile at me even when I've said the stupidest thing.
I love the way we can fight and hang up the phone knowing the other person wants to call back but both are too stubborn.
I love the way you can light up my face by just walking in a room.
I love the way you look at me as you gently kiss my forehead
I love all of this, but what I love most is...you
And I can't imagine living any other way; even if I can't see you every day, your voice echoes in my head, your love remains in my heart.
And if you walk away, I know that it will be the best thing to ever walk out of my life.

And I found one ;)

I want the boy that would go into the fast food place to order the food because he knows that I hate to do it.
I want the boy that would hold my purse when I try on clothes, not caring what people think.
I want the boy that would color with me like little kids.
I want the boy that would tell me I'm beautiful while wearing sweats.
I want the boy that would hang out with me with his friends.
I want the boy that would tell me he needs to get 'guy time.'
I want the boy that would take me on romantic dates.
I want the boy that would take me to a scary movie and let me hold his hand the whole time.
I want the boy that would watch chick flicks with me, and when I cried, he'd wipe away my tears.
I want the boy that would stay on the phone, even if I wasn't saying anything.
I want the boy that would know in a millisecond that I wasn't okay.
I want the boy that would come visit me, bring me mushroom soup, and cuddle up watching daytime TV when I was sick.
I want the boy that would defend me to any a**hole or b**ch.
I want the boy that would just hold me.
I want the boy that would give me hugs that make me weak in my knees.
I want the boy that would be able to give me butterflies with just a smile.
I want the boy that could make me smile with just one kiss.
I want the boy that would kiss me in the rain.
I want the boy that would dance with me, in the rain or shine.
I want the boy that would sing with me obnoxiously.
I want the boy that would push me on the swings and catch me at the end of the slide.
I want the boy that would call me baby.
I want the boy that would say I love you and mean it with all of his heart.
I want the boy that would just be my best friend...forever.

I did.

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?

You fall deeper with each passing day,
but try to hide it in every possible way.

He's only a friend, and nothing else
that's the lie you keeping telling yourself.

You keep on saying he's just a bud,
but deep inside, you're falling in love.

You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
but keep reminding yourself it isn't right.

A simple glance turns into a stare,
but you pretend that you don't care.

It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?

Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
so being his girl is an impossible wish...

-Momei Qu    

True LOVE.

There was a blind girl, who used to hate everyone except her boyfriend.

She always used to say "I will marry you if I could see".

One day she got a donor for her eyes and the operation was a success.

When asked, whom would you like to see first?

She desired to see her boyfriend.

She was shocked to see that her boyfriend is also blind.

Her boyfriend then asked, "Will you marry me?"

She simply refused.

Her boyfriend didn't question anything.

He neither regretted with a word nor felt sorry.

He got up and walked away, saying "Just take care of my eyes".