How do I even begin? After all this little heart of mine kept it all in itself. Sometimes I wish I could really let them all out- telling what's in my head, expressing my true feelings and stating what's right with me or what's wrong with you. Being in this city itself is a whole new life. Different backgrounds, different cultures, different believes. I thought my nawaytu has been declared from beginning. Why, then do I feel uneasy? Why do I grieve? Why every time a sigh is heard? At times, tears roll down my cheeks. Even then, I don't know why it happened. But one thing held me strong- faith. The only faith left. The only hope left. The only happiness left. Honestly, I wouldn't be who I am now without the One. HE helped me through thick and thin. HE soothed me with the clouds of my favourite. HE cheered me with the smiles of little kids. HE protected me with the wings of HIS angels.
How beautiful it is to have someone who knows everything about you. I don't have to say a word and HE knows it very well. Even in the darkness of time HE sent me HIS light. HE showed the best path for me. HE led me to the garden of patience and courage.
I may be one of the people who disobeyed, who are sinned, and who made HIM angry. I may be the one HE will never forgive, never blessed, and never loved. But one thing for sure, I believe in HIM. I know HE knows and that's all matter. I don't need others to tell me how I should feel towards HIM. Probably as a reminder, yes. But to tell me how, I myself alone know how to feel.
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