Goodbye, 2009!

Days toward the end of the year are coming fast enough to even realize them… Tests and assignments kept me busy from shopping and watching movies. January 2010 will be the end of Semester 1! The month where stress level will rise to its maximum so will my weight (sigh). The requirement is only to PASS. Should be easy to get there don't you think so? Yes, effort is a must and hard work pays it all. Insya-Allah, Ireland is a place where I will be at on September 2010.

Since beginning of this year, I thank God that everything turned out good despite few catfights, jealousy, sinfully delicious food consumption and etc. As a human, I do mistakes as well. I'm not perfect after all. I'm just a girl who tries to live her own life in peace and harmony with nature as well as with human beings. Just those human beings are annoying at times and that's when you're supposed to avoid them.

Let's see if I manage to pull it through those rough times:

1. Study hard for A-levelà Actually, I did study hard. Tuition almost every weekend. Probably my luck to go Ireland is not this year L Results: ABCC
   
2. Lose weightà I think I'm in the 50+ still =.=
   
3. Managed to watch Harry Potter 6 with Tiger.
   
4. New moon as well ^^
   
5. I didn't manage to go Ireland for 1^st year but Foundation Year, as Dr. Loo said was supposed to be a Fun Year J that's something good to hear.
   
6. So far, my relationship with Tiger went well and nothing seems to be much a problem except on his side.
   
7. To be 50kg! Ops, I said it again :)
   
8. The saddest part of all… I didn't get to watch KLWMBC. Wonder who won the best marching band for this year.hmm…
   
9. Learnt new moves and dance and I miss those moments dancing with Jeannie and Evelyn.
   
10. Huge fight with J… traumatized babe! Really…
    
11. BUT, I'm talking to Jeannie again! Bogoshipoyo~
    
12. I got A-levels Chemistry B. Hey, something that all of you should be proud of.
    
13. Penang is one of the most hated islands as I lost my iPod in one lousy library.
    
14. Oh right! On Valentine Day I met up with Sze Jian after one year! Honestly, he looked like Onew Shinee ok! Well, when he was tembam.
    
15. THE ANGRIEST MOMENT! - BROKE UP WITH TIGER AND THE NEXT THING I KNOW IS HE HOOKED UP WITH A BITCH! S.C.R.E.W HER!!!
    

Bleh, these are all I could think of. Honestly, a lot of dramas in 2009 that I would like to share with the whole wide world!

The gossips I've been through:

- KL and I are together. (How on earth?)

- have something to do with KTJ. Oh well, I think he's cute. Well, he is.

- Horrible fight with my ex-roommate and Faiz Halim which I think has no sense at all.

- In this one place, I think someone thought that I like this boy. Excuse me, do you want Tiger to eat you up?

See, I told you. Free drama for 2009! Amazing how one year can have many things happening without you realizing.

However, thank you for turning my life upside down. That's the fun part of it =)

I think it is time for me to welcome 2010- Tiger year! A year full of happiness, good wealth and good health.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!!!

IN LOVING MEMORY OF P’BIG D2B

BIG @ PANRAWAT KITTIKORNCHAROEN

1982-2007

02^nd December 1982

A star was born somewhere in a place called Bangkok, Thailand. He was tall, fair and had the sweetest face ever. When Dan & Beam discovered his hidden talent, they took him into a boy band called D2B which stands for Dan, Beam and Big. They were the teenagers' sweetheart lovers. With romantic songs and their charming looks you can never go wrong to love this boy band.

[ DAN – BIG – BEAM ]

Until the night in the year of 2003, heartbreaking news about P'Big- he was involved in a terrible accident. He went into coma for few years due to surgery complication in removing bacteria and fungus in the brain. Since then, people visited and prayed for him. I prayed for his comeback. I prayed that he could sing again. He could be on stage again. I prayed that one day I could meet him and smile at him.

For six years I have been putting high hopes, thinking P'Big is recovering every single day. For six years, every time I played their songs on iTunes, my heart would cry silently. When I watched their MVs, smiles and tears accompanied me through. Still hoping my wishes would come true.

 

07^th December 2007 (5 days after Big's birthday)

P'Big left the world. He left and will never return. My wishes crushed. My hopes had gone. I can no longer see him on stage. I can no longer hear him sing. No more smiles of his. No more laughter of his. No more that sweet face I have always wanted to touch.

P'Big, I miss you.

P'Big, I love you.

I cried the whole night when I found out about the sad news. I cried to sleep listening to D2B's songs. I cried to sleep wishing I could meet him in my dreams. I just want to see him one more time. I just want to smile at him one last time. But I know I can't...

 

07^th December 2009

Two years had passed. Deep in my heart, the scar is still freshly wounded. The fact that he left hurts me a lot. The fact that I am not able to meet him hurts me. I would cry when he crossed my mind. I would cry when his songs are played on iTunes. I would cry watching his last concert- Miracles. I would cry because even when you are not around, your songs linger around me. Your smiles would flash in front of my eyes. Your image keeps appearing in my dreams. You make me miss you even more. You make me want to turn back time so badly. You make me want to fly to Thailand hoping you weren't dead after all.

Screams For Your Return.   It was an odd day, Your face kept appearing, I know that deep in my heart, I'm missing you, crying.   I wish I could see you, Even for the last time, Let me see you, Just one more time.   Suddenly, The voice of your soul, Sings my lullaby, Happy to be near you, So glad that you lived, Though we've bade goodbye.   There isn't a day I never think about you. There isn't a moment that I don't miss you. There isn't a memory that left my mind. My heart is wishing you were never gone.   Though we've bade goodbye, I still miss you….   Chun ruk ter P'Big.

 

 

It is time for me to stop and take another way.

Good things always come to an end. No matter how much you want them to stay, to a certain extent you just have to let them go. Nothing really belongs to you. I have learnt a lot for the past few weeks. I'm tired to face these ugly feelings every single day. Marc told me something that helped to clear my mind. I have to find the end to this. The stories in my head have been rolling nonstop. Only I can push the stop button. I need to let things go. I have to or I'll be eating myself up. I will end up hurting my real feelings, destroying my soul. How I wish I'm only 3 years old where I know nothing about anyone. Nothing hurts more than just a cut on the knee. Now, even a crack in my heart, it hurts so much. So much that I couldn't cry. Hurt so bad that every beat of my heart, I would stop breathing. I have to remind myself that not everyone can read minds. Not even Nadirah who knows me so well. I thought I could handle these commotions. The ugly truth behind it is I can't. I can't do it alone at least. I have been through worse and I should know better that this couldn't be the worst I have to face.

It is time for me to burn the memories. Throw the ashes away, leave everything behind and come back to the old me. The cheerful one they said. I have never realized they actually saw me as the smiling-all-the-way kind of girl. When Shu Ying told me I didn't have the bright look on my face like usual today I was taken aback. I have always thought that I'm the hot-tempered girl, the moody one and always frowning. When she said that, suddenly what Kennard, Ming Wai, Sze Jian and Soh said before makes me realized I was always laughing and smiling and that I wouldn't go through a single day without them. I couldn't accept the fact that I've forgotten about it. It's hard for me to actually believe now that I am a total opposite from how I was 3 years ago. I think I don't know who I am now. Who or what I have became.

Before, no matter how sad I was at the end of the day I know that someone would put a smile on my face. At the moment, I have to do it alone. I'm far from where I belong. It is scary, very scary. I hope someone or anyone would give me a map and a compass for me to find my way back home. Home where I can be myself instead of the one I am now. Someone that I have never knew before. Someone who claimed herself as me. Someone who wore my mask.

Take my hands and hold them tight. Lead me the way out from here. It's so dark and cold. I'm trembling and I'm scared. If you could just give me a light I will be able to find my way back. All I needed is help. A help will do. Though at times, you just have to do it by yourself without anyone to assist you. You have to walk on your own. You have to walk alone.

 

 

Let me be happy.

Let me smile without crying inside.

Let me laugh without feeling hurt.

Let me walk without feeling scared.

 

Busy week!

You have no idea what I've been through this week. And last week.

Let's see…

Monday- went out to shop for groceries.

Tuesday- PMC Hari Raya Celebration.

Wednesday- Futsal and small party in the house.

Thursday- Movie "Ugly Truth" and yumcha.

Friday- I have no idea what's happening tomorrow…

And I'm sleepy. So, I'll continue blogging soon…real soon!

Promise!

 

 

October Feast!

29-09-09 >> I typed it in my phone but the laptop couldn't read it :(

Okay, Raya's done long time ago and I've been waiting for this moment to arrive. (Gosh, 10 months waiting!) But before I start getting excited, Nadie's leaving Malaysia tonight. Well, not exactly tonight but she's going to KLIA tonight so let it be tonight ayte. Well, will miss her jokes especially- and not really her.

*grumbles* THAT was my tummy, people! Too bad I'm fasting today and I left my wallet in the house. Oh, you guys might wonder where I am. I'm actually in the library trying to figure out how to do my physics tutorial. At Question 3 I gave up! Physics really isn't my thing~ (oh please tummy, stop making noises!)

Oh!!! I forgot to mention, a sepet-eyed was detected! He went out from the library for awhile. Wish could know him more. (Tiger, I meant it as a friend)

Let's get back to ME! My birthday is so soon that you and me might not even realized it. It's exactly 23 days from now. Along the way, these people also arrived on Earth:

• Nadirah Shahrom
  
• Khairul Reza
  
• Syafiqah Nadia
  
• Nurul Miftah
  
• Josephine Hendriks
  
• Hoh Chee Yuen
  
• Denise Kok
  
• Mr. Simon Lai
  
• Kiang (Alvin)
  
• Kevin Hoong
  
• Liyana
  
• Azianti Taib
  
• Ckin Hanif
  
• My grandma
  
• Pak Su
  
• Joanne Lim
  
• Azimah
  
• Ali VI
  
• Ethira Sherwany
  
• Imran Fadzil
  
• Shawn Lim
  
• David
  
• Jeannie John, Fei Ching & Song Min Kyeong (all on the same date)
  
• Tiara Fedora
  
• Eminem
  
• 2 of my secondary school teachers
  
• 1 old primary school friend
  
• Siew Li Joo (we share!)
  
• Nadirah Ehsan
  
• And the list goes on….
  

So, now we all know how many Octoberians in my list!

 

And here comes the wish list!

1. I wish I had a Burberry wallet
   
2. And their Trench Coat
   
3. If possible their wrist watch also
   
4. I want to try handmade cakes or chocolate cheese from Secret Recipe
   
5. Sushi King for a treat! Eat whatever I can :)
   
6. Korean style cardigan
   
7. Shopping spree
   
8. Mark & Spencer's maroon boot (I've been craving for that)
   

...looks like I've been wishing the un-wish-able but most of all…

1. Celebrate my birthday with loved ones
   
2. And have a good night sleep
   

…think you can grant my last wish???

START WORKING!

JACQUELINE ON CYSTIC FIBROSIS & LUNG TRANSPLANT

Written by,
SHANAZ MD SHAHROM

As a young baby, Jacqueline Monaghan was diagnosed with Cystic fibrosis (CF). This disease is an inherited disorder caused by mutations in a gene on chromosome 7 which involved in regulating moisture on epithelial surfaces. This mutation makes a protein called cystic fibrosis transmembrane regulator (CFTR) to become abnormal. As a result, CF patients produce thick and sticky mucus rather than the thin, watery type. This condition manifests in many organs for instance the upper and lower airways, pancreas, bile as well as reproductive tracts. In most patients, the cause of death is mainly due to lung disease. The mucus would clog the airways causing bacteria to remain in the lungs and this may lead to infection.

During her early childhood, Jacqueline was able to enjoy life as a normal young girl. However, life got more complicated when she started secondary school as she needed more antibiotics. She decided to go into medicine just as she was entering university. At that time, she had a lung capacity of 45% and was not in her healthiest state. However, she managed to finish the course. She had a part-time job but was barely able to work. Jacqueline proceeded into Psychiatry after her junior year. As time passed, her lungs were getting more damaged and she risked getting respiratory failure. At the moment, the only cure for respiratory failure is a lung transplant. She went on waiting list for lung transplant 3 years ago.

Being on the waiting list, Jacqueline felt very anxious as they could call her at any time and undergo the surgery. For patients with CF, a successful lung transplant gives them about 50% chance of surviving for the next two years. CF is an unpredictable condition; the lungs can have an acute infection or otherwise have no function for a long time. Thus, it is very difficult to perform a transplant. As soon as a lung is available, at least two donors were called to the hospital. The donors and the patient were examined base on their physical condition, blood type and other specific requirements. A match was found when a donor and a patient’s medical and biological information were the same.

On an April morning, Jacqueline received a call at 3.45a.m stating that a matching donor was found. She flew to Newcastle and was anesthetized in a hospital. The operation began at 10.00a.m that very day. After she had awakened, she felt strange and experienced a lot of pain every time she tried to breathe deeply. Her breathing became easier the next two days and only after a week was she able to breathe normally. She felt more comfortable with her new lungs.

A year after Jacqueline’s surgery, she was amazed at the things she could do, namely her daily routines. She was grateful that she had her family supporting her throughout her illness and most importantly the donor of her new lungs. Jacqueline enjoyed taking on her part-time job and appreciated her life ever since.

Jacqueline is only one of the many cases of patients involving a lung transplant. There are still many people eagerly waiting for a suitable donor in hopes of saving their lives. But for Jacqueline, she had only just begun to ‘live’.

Reference: Student BMJ Podcast Transplantation, www.student.bmj.com

Whisper of the heart.

Something I wrote years ago.

WHISPER OF THE HEART

I saw you…
Deep down in my heart,
I wanted to say “Hi, I love you”
Those words could not be heard
Even my heart screamed them loud.
Now, can you hear what my heart says?
“That’s it, I’m over with you”
Cause you do not care to listen with your ears
Then it burst into tears.
Now I have told you…
Can you listen with your heart?
When I say “I love you”?


PS: There’s a deep meaning in this piece. I’m not sure if you get what I was trying to tell.

Things that people would never figured out about me just by looking at me!

1. I would think a lot! Like every second I would start imagining stuff, planning my days, recording, analyzing, reading people’s mind and of course day dreaming- how my life would be like if I marry this man or that man, will I ever be a good mother, will I be able to stay up at different hours just to check on humans who have diseases and seek for attention etc.
2. I am very kedekut with my food! If I can have the whole burger to myself, I would eat it alone! My sisters and brothers always complain that I never share my food- because I wouldn’t! If people give me some, I would not take them because I fear that they are also like me!
3. I’m actually petite. If my boyfriends are around me, then you know what I mean.
4. I have gone through a lot in my life and no, I’m not telling you. I met a lot of characters all around the world. But those differences make the Earth another better place to stay than the Sun? examples: normal fights, backstabbers, accused, being in love, being loved, heartbroken, break hearts, get cursed, pampered, spoiled, trying to be know-it-all and failed, trying to act super cool, please people without wanting to, saying yes to everything, never try to say no to things you know you can’t do, too kind, and etc.
5. Most of the time I prefer to listen.
6. I love animals! Especially feline groups that include tigers, leopards, cats and cheetahs.
7. I wish to become a policewoman someday. I would arrest those ignorant people who wouldn’t stop before the zebra cross to let people cross the busy roads.
8. I’m picky with my clothes. I prefer wearing thick clothing despite Malaysia’s weather.
9. Dislike shopping but when I do, I’ll pick those that I would wear for a long time. And it’s always hard to choose clothes/shoes/bags from 5 or more stores.
10. I have six wonderful and weird siblings including myself. They are all of different attitudes. But almost all of us have rabbit teeth :B Five out of six are in the medical line leaving our baby brother with his long-to-go future.
11. I can speak the common words of Arabic, Korean, Japanese, Thai, Philippines, Spanish, French, Mandarin and Cantonese. English is so easy and so is Malay but I always forgot the words in Malay. Not a laughing matter…
12. I am obsessed with green, Emma Watson, Big D2B, ShinHwa and dresses. (I think everybody knows that!)
13. I cannot sing at all but I can dance pretty well. Specifically hip-hop dance.
14. Chinese boys was my favorite collection and still is but progressing to hot British hunks.
15. I am so gedik. Really!

It-story of an iPod!

10-09-09

A silver solid iPod nano, the old version, was bought probably half a decade ago somewhere in Singapore or just the Peninsula I’m not sure. Belongs to Nazreen and after she got bored of the lame settings, she passed the iPod to me! So, I’ve been taking care of that little thing for at least a year and never bother what will I do without its help to bring me to the tuned world from the harsh-tuned world or I shall say nagging from all kind of humans and just to get out from the busyness of the Land of Mud.

The silver body was covered with black plastic. (Save plastic people!) Until one day Nadirah was kind enough to give it a new casing. Match with my all-time favorite color, green and new-now-useless earphones, my lovely greenish iPod now can enjoy its’ precious time in my comfy Prada handbag.

Make long story short, someone abused it! Took it out from its comfort zone, I wonder where has my iPod gone?

The long story starts when I decided to walk back home from college. And I’m not sure how I ended at the Penang’s public library. Stayed there for an hour and then continue my journey home. Entered my room and was about to sleep. Suddenly some stupid people around the apartment probably killing time drilling his house’s wall for nothing but noise made me look inside my bag for him. Shocked and confused, I realized someone stole it. Oh My Dear… Searched the whole wardrobe even places where I know I would never put it there. How cruel humans are to something so small. Probably my iPod was ‘sleeping’ still before I ‘woke’ him up to play me songs. So, I did the silliest part, but still did it-I cried! Yes, just an iPod BUT I’ve been taking care of it like so well. And I planned to go walk around the Island while listening to it.

My other crazy alternative is to switch on my laptop, pluck in the earphones, the broken one and then put them all in my bag! That way, I get internet access AND music at the same time! The only problem is that either I’m brave enough to do it or someone might pull me in a van, rob my bag and left me alone by the road. Gosh, really crazy ideas but I’m lovin’ the adventure!

So, my loyal laptop, don’t you dare break down in front of me and leave me with nothingness in this world. Thanks a zillion!

Taste of Freedom

Exactly 2100 last night, my biggest most huge nightmare's over!
NO MORE A-LEVELS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!
&& first thing in the morning I am out of this fucking KTJ!!! Ha-Ha!
Packed everything up last night and slept. No more books. No more dinner dates~ ;)
But but but... I will miss the Upper 6s. And of course some Lower 6s- especially that one.
No Bie, I miss you more lah... ;p

Mission accomplished:
1. Lunch with the Kinabalu members
2. Returned all books (sort of)
3. Gave away all notes
4. Lunch with Mr. Dickman @ 020709! (thought he wouldn't agree with the idea)
5. Mr. Murali eventually bought our Maths class Nasi Lemak. Thank you!!
6. A-levels. Yeay!
7. New friends ;)
8. Pictures taken. Here and there.

Looking forward to:
1. OUTINGS!
2. Interview @ 30th June
3. Installation night @ 28th June
4. Speech Day @ 4th July
5. Probably summer camp.
6. Reading more books! OMG, i sounded like a geek!
7. More dates with Tiger :D


Highlights throughout exam month(s):
- We as in me, Faiz and Anjali played truth or dare in the dining hall a day before prom. We dared Anju to tell Kenneth "I love you". Faiz did sexy touch and sexy talk with Edvin. We got Honey to play one round with us. She went to Nesho(is that how u spell his name?) and asked to become her prom partner. Well, not like she can go also.
- After ECA Reportaire, those non-prom-ing went to tuck shop to lepak. We played a "prom game" and had lots of laughter!!
- Library incident. grr~ They will always say my name out loud whenever he walked by.
- Lunch with Kinabalu members. Some didn't manage to come but we had fun chitchatting.
- Developed a new crush. Yes Bie, a new one. But he's in Form 2 ;p Think i told you. LOL!
- 090609 LOVE BRINGS TWO SOUL TOGETHER again!


I'm glad i'll be leaving this school with some sweet memories. And bitter ones. But whatever~
Oh, Nadie and Shazli coming back for summer holidays :D Can't wait for cousin's outing! Wee~

Between Study of Life and F=ma

Current song: something from Hitz.fm

Just like every other day, I (forcefully) went to library to do Maths C4. Besides, period 3&4 we'll be having Maths class at G3 which is near the library. So, might as well just go there.
Bell rang @ 0950.
Saw CT walked back to house. (Isn't CT supposed to have Maths class?!) Both Imrans-A & F, John, Sean and I did Mechanics 1. For TOMORROW.

Break, went to library again. Continued M1. Early Lunch. Went back and prayed.
Next destination: Simon's Square. Chemistry class. *sigh*

After school hour, went to the Foyer to donate blood!
Bad news: Waited for an hour till they got the things done and they said it supposed to start @ 1400 && I didn't get to study Mechanics 1 =(
Good news: Managed to donate my blood [B+] =D

Around 5pm, went back to house, showered in dizziness, prayed, talked to Tiger, fell asleep.
Woke up when they rang the house bell.
"Shit, prep!" Prayed Maghrib.
Switched on the laptop. Biology past year papers appeared.

"All enzymes are protein. They..."
[Serious studying going on. Please keep quite.]

PS: Weih! Mechanics 1 how la?? T.T

Einstein, gimme some rest!

*beep* *beeeep* *beeeeeeeeeep!!!!* "Aihhhh..."
*buzz* "Hello?" "Em, wake up d. I love you" "I love you too. Muaxxx~"
Showered. Prayed. Breakfast- lazy.

8.30am- Library. Revision Physics Paper 2. John Bong came an hour later.
11.10am- Break. Went to Tuck Shop. Met Imran, Abraham, Sean Su and Alvin. Went to library again. CT was there too. Studying his S1. Ha-ha =D Last minute discussion for Physics 5. (panicking!)
1.00pm- Lunch time. Went back to house, prayed. Got the stationeries ready then head off to hall.
1.45pm- Entered hall. Seated . Formulae running through my mind.
1.50pm- Seated still. Looking around. Breathe in breathe out.
1.55pm- Brain: Wah, 5 mins to 2pm.
1.58pm- Brain: Cepatlah...
1.59pm- Coughed. Formulae started runnning away. Brain: Oi, come back wei!
2.00pm- Here we go...~ Bismillah...

Physics Paper 2 (2.00pm-3.00pm)
Q1. Base Quantities.
Q2. Projectile Motion
Q3. Electric Field
Q4. Torque
Q5. Spring Constant (didn't expect this to come out)
Q6. Diffraction Double Slit (pass year)
Q7. Kirchoff's Law
Q8. Radioactive Decay

Physics Paper 5(3.15pm-4.30pm)
Q1. Finding Young modulus (Design experiment)
Q2. I=pd^q (did mistake when finding y-intercept!)

Good news: 13 PAPERS LEFT...!!!!

4.40pm- (Lazily) walked back to library. Did C4 for Dickman's Maths class tomorrow.
6.00pm- Happily walked back to house. Prayed.
6.30pm- Dinner. Saw CT.
7.00pm- Talked with Tiger on the phone. Whenever he did this "I LOVE YOU" voice, I'd go "gugugaga".

Prep- C4. Seriously cannot concentrate....!!! Even Tiger can tell Squirrel's mind wandered around the jungle... ;)


Events:
Thursday- Blood Donation!
Friday- MUFTI Day! + Biology 1 + Mechanics 1


Quote of the day: Tiger don't have fingers but can count! Ha-ha!

Long Day Ahead

Wake UP! Chemistry Practical...!!!
*yawn*
Went to library around 8.30am. Jason Tong, John Bong and I gathered at Simon's Square (a small room where our favourite Chemistry teacher, Mr. Simon Lai can be found). Having done our (last minute) revision, we headed off to the laboratory. Most of the students were already there. I saw CT. He-he...

Chemistry Lab 1: Me, next to Voon Hui (Lower 6).
I estimated every question must finished within 40 mins.

The Experiment: Cu2+ diluted, KI, Na2S2O3, HCl.
Q1. Cappucino Test. Dark dirty brown turns pale brown, then add 10 drops of starch. UNTIL blue-black coloration disappear. (END POINT).
I was really clumsy for this question! Spilled solutions everywhere. And no freaking space!
Q2. Rate of reaction. Sulfur, yellow ppt formed and time for that to happened. (Here, I managed to get extra 10 mins to finish up my calculation for Q1. Honesly, i was really rushing.)
Q3. Analysis. Ions present: Pb2+, Mg2+, Chromate, Nitrite and Sulphate. How to test? Refer the paper they gave you. =D

Washed the apparatus, straight went to lunch! No, the day doesn't end here. There are still 16 papers waiting for me. After lunch, prayed, took a nap then (lazily) went to library again. Physics 2 and 5 Revision-athon. Managed to get some information glued to my brain. InsyAllah i can answer Paper 2 and Paper 5. Amin.

PS: Pray for my success!

Otakku Hangus

F.Y.I, Chemistry practical is tomorrow. T.T
I still have Physics 2 and 5 to do later...

C4 trials- B 77% (gotta work harder!)

[stress...][stress...][stress...][stress...][stress...][stress...][stress...]

InsyAllah can do lah! =)

A-levels BIG TIME!

THE REAL BATTLE STARTED @ 14-05-09

1. BIOLOGY 3
2. CHEMISTRY 3
3. PHYSICS 2
4. PHYSICS 5
5. BIOLOGY 1
6. MECHANICS 1
7. PHYSICS 3
8. BIOLOGY 4
9. PHYSICS 4
10. CHEMISTRY 4
11. BIOLOGY 2
12. BIOLOGY 5
13. CHEMISTRY 2
14. CHEMISTRY 5
15. PHYSICS 1
16. CHEMISTRY 1
17. CORE MATHS 3
18. CORE MATHS 4

freaky friday

15th May 2009

current song : Demi Lovato- Don't Forget

Breakfast! oh, i miss breakfast ALOT! Went with Faiz and most Nadza boys were sitting with us. CT was next to our table. Can i say that i miss him?! Ha-Ha. Like he cares =|
(sorry Tiger! ;p)
Then, went to Library. Again. Studied C4 abit. Chatted about how much 4 of us sick of this ONE never-sick-to-annoy-people fella. I tell you, my patience level is not that high and i could just "explode" anytime. Imagine a boy, an ugly one, stares (STARES!) at you and reminds him of your sister. That is called "no live to live on". Fine, I know it has nothing to do with me since it's between my sister and that fucker. BUT, staring at me is one thing i can't accept. That is FRONT STALKING! eww.. And i told her to stop in any way at all from communicating with him. (Too bad for me lah~)

Let's erase that part away.
C4 trails- Alhamdulillah, i could answer most of the questions by leaving them empty. =D
At least i tried kan?! He-He...
After that, we had Biology. Was standing throughout the lesson. No, not punishment. Just to prevent me from sleeping since i didn't bring the papers to class =) Sarah and I had fun. Laughing around. Talking shytes. I had fun my own way =D Screw those fellas. Sometimes, it's fun watching the people that you wish you could condemn is condemned by higher rank people. Call me whenever it happens at your place okay?! LOL!

Lunch. Sleep.
Dinner. Shower.
1st Prep- Physics 2
Break- Tiger called!!!!!! =DDDDD
2nd Prep- Nadie called!!!!! ( We sisters really do have some kind of "aura")
Bedtime- Sang Tiger to sleep.. I <3 style="font-style: italic;">muaxxx~

Some some about SISTERS.
I guess, within sisters they do have strong instinct or probably known as aura.
Early this afternoon, the thought of my sister crossed my mind. Planned that i would write on her wall later at night. As mentioned above, she called! But the line was so shitty i told her that i would call her instead. Burnt my 7 bucks (T.T), we talked for about 3 and a half minutes. While we were chatting, probably coincidence, i was hungry and so was she. Plus i wanted to finish off the leftover breads. Went down to pantry and toasted them. Spread butter and they melt fast! Yummy~ (Damn, i want more!) Went to my room again and found out she's eating bread also! But of course, without butter. Ha-Ha! I reckon we miss each other so badly! =DDDDD And i miss my borthers and Kak Arin. =(((
Oh July, come faster please!

PS: Saturday i'm going back! Get to meet Ikmal i hope =D and also Tiger! =p

1st Battle: Biology Practical Examination 9700/31

14 May 2009

Woke up early. Prayed and then I read up some information that i left out last night.
Soon, Biology Practical, 10.40am. OMG!OMG!OMG!.... I'm freaking out.
Went to class... Apparently, only me who's taking Practical exams was there. Sorry to others though. They didn't have a proper lesson because of me (i think) BUT thanks to me (maybe), the class ends earlier than usual. =)

Went to library and found a whole bunch of August Intakes Lower 6ers having discussion for the Practical exams. Gave them some hints and went off to sit with Sarah. Faiz and Sabrina was there too- studying. Shaking and trembling, i bid them goodbye and head to the Biology Laboratory. Sweating and training my brain to remember all the facts, i stepped in the Lab (with Bismillah) and found my seat, next to Aswan.

The Experiment: Effect of pH on enzyme present in yeast. (or something like that)
The yeast plus ethanol plus glucose gave a very yucky odour. Blekk~ They said i started off first (well, i'm not gonna waste my time). So, yeah. ONE DOWN! What i know now, i screwed most of the questions but i have 17 papers to look ahead and looking back at what have been done is so yesterday. (yeah, that's the way Shanaz!) =D

Lunch.
Chemistry class. Brain focus: 5%
After school- Interact (annual) meeting.
Went to 6th F. Center. Planned to do Mechanics 1. Ended up sleeping in the interview room.(luckily got air-cond weih! the EARTH is BOILING!)

Me, a zombie, walked back to Jawahir.
Put my bag down.
Removed the blanket.
Took off my tudung and shirt (no imagination here!)
SLEEP.

*buzzz* *buzzz*
"Hello?!" "Wake upppp! Dinner date!"
Brain: Hell, dinner date!
Eyes: Sleep..... She had a long day kan?
Brain: Chemistry wei!
Eyes: She needs to sleep!
Brain: She slept for 2 hours.
Eyes: Look, she's having headache. Can't you tell?
Brain: She's waking up
Eyes: Yeah, look, im flooded.
Brain: OMG, is she okay?
Eyes: Shutup!

Showered.Sob.
"Tiger, i miss you"
Dinner date- absent

monday blues

11th May 2009

Assembly.
Was SUPPOSED to get the Librarian Certificates! =(((
Biology- Slide experiment
Maths- more maths classes during Examination month
Break- Library Monitors Meeting
Chemistry- more classes.
Physics- Play time! =D (study la woi!)
After school- Chemistry Practical (my very last practical!)
also my last time to see CT =(

stress ALERT!

current song: what hurts the most by rascal flatts

300409- Happy Birthday to Dr. Shahrom also known as my beloved Ayah :) Too bad i couldnt be home to celebrate it with him and the whole family. (should have gone back lah) Anyways, today is my worst day ever- flu, cough and fought with that minah Korea. No ampun-ampun! No way!

Last weekend wasn't that good either. Fuck! i regret buying that shit. Urgh, God, help me!! :(((
This afternoon, Nadie walled me and said she just found a video i did for her. (can't remember which one) BUT i'm gald that she loves it! Great, now i'm missing her :((

What to study this month?!
1. Bio 3
2. Chem 3
3. Phy 2
4. Phy 5
5. Bio 1
6. Mech 1
7. Phy 3
(I'm actually struggling to see the list since it was 1.5m away!)
So far, i did Chem 4. (wait, that's not in the list!) Oh, well... and later- Mechanics 1 :D


below is my timetable for this whole exam months.















SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT FROM THIS CELL!!!
I'll be counting the dayssssssss~ after that, Farah and Kak Nadie...we're gonna rock KL!!!


MOMMY: Study hard and make sure you get your results!
AYAH: Study hard and smart. Then you can follow Kakak.
KAKAK: Shanaz, study tau! Then i'll wait till September comes!
ME: Insyallah. I will try my whole lot of BEST to study and get good results okay! Make doa for me!

PS: 14 days left till i sit for Biology Paper 3. Hitchman! Help me pleaseee~

balik sekolah~

BACK at KTJail. (oh, God)
The John's sisters gave me a green hoody shirt. Will show you the pictures tomorrow ;) Anyways, the crazy routines starts on Monday itself. Lucky me, no Chemistry practical. Was supposed to go jog with Jeannie and Evelyn but the weather was scorching hawt. So, i stayed in my room and start flipping through my (holiday) prep ;p
Then, almost midnight i started to get this massive pounding headache. Called Marc (and cried) and then fell asleep till around 3 am- because my bed got wet and it was raining. *shivers*

Breakfast: nasi lemak :D
Dozzed off during Physics.
Maths-C3... urgh, haven't finish!
Guess what i saw this evening?! a beautiful layered colored sky! blue and pinkish orange-ish. Subhanallah~


*beep* *beep*
From: mommy- Kak Arin having interview today. Make doa for her success. Insyallah.


Tomorrow's event : EARTH DAY- free MUFTI!

Sunny Day

Current song: My band-Eminem ft D12


The clouds are gone! Early Saturday morning?!
I'm off to PJ later then maybe drop by at SJI's Family Day.
Just pray that the weather won't be that hot later on. And around evening, i'll be meeting with this (huge) teacher for Physics. Oh, i really wanna buy this long shirt! Mommy, let me please =|

Abang Hisham having his finals soon ;) study hard okay! Then we can go holiday at Ireland- celebrate Christmas and shopping! Also, insyallah Kak Arin will be there by that time. So no worries about booking rooms ;)

Ten things I look forward to (around june-july) :
1. Kak Nadie coming back for Summer holidays :D
2. Abang Shazli too! :D:D
3. Farah Shazliyana three! :D:D:D
4. Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince
5. Sunway Lagoon trip (this to be confirmed later)
6. Sitting for my IELTS test again!
7. Work with Kak Saba or with Mommy and her NuSkin products!
8. Holiday with Family in Johor B.
9. Clean my room ;p
10. Workout workout workout

Okay, my hair's dry now. Gotta get ready to leave.
PS: Marc, call me! ;p

Timeless

No, this is not about Xiah Junsu ft Jang Ri In's song!
This is the new blog of mine. Deleted the old ones as they were meaningless.
anyways, this Sunday I'll be back in KTJ. New term and i'll be sitting for my finals ;) after that, goodbye college & hello uni! So now, i gotta study harder and focus more while doing my revision! but right now i can't. distracted and too many thoughts running in and out from my brain. i wish time would go slow on me. especilally now.

"O' Lord, help me go through this 'pain' and free me with success and joy" amin.

PS: ayah, mommy, kak arin, abg hisham, abg shazli, kak nadie and ikmal; make doa for me so that i can be a part of the medical circle like everyone else in the family. <3