IN LOVING MEMORY OF P’BIG D2B

BIG @ PANRAWAT KITTIKORNCHAROEN

1982-2007

02^nd December 1982

A star was born somewhere in a place called Bangkok, Thailand. He was tall, fair and had the sweetest face ever. When Dan & Beam discovered his hidden talent, they took him into a boy band called D2B which stands for Dan, Beam and Big. They were the teenagers' sweetheart lovers. With romantic songs and their charming looks you can never go wrong to love this boy band.

[ DAN – BIG – BEAM ]

Until the night in the year of 2003, heartbreaking news about P'Big- he was involved in a terrible accident. He went into coma for few years due to surgery complication in removing bacteria and fungus in the brain. Since then, people visited and prayed for him. I prayed for his comeback. I prayed that he could sing again. He could be on stage again. I prayed that one day I could meet him and smile at him.

For six years I have been putting high hopes, thinking P'Big is recovering every single day. For six years, every time I played their songs on iTunes, my heart would cry silently. When I watched their MVs, smiles and tears accompanied me through. Still hoping my wishes would come true.

 

07^th December 2007 (5 days after Big's birthday)

P'Big left the world. He left and will never return. My wishes crushed. My hopes had gone. I can no longer see him on stage. I can no longer hear him sing. No more smiles of his. No more laughter of his. No more that sweet face I have always wanted to touch.

P'Big, I miss you.

P'Big, I love you.

I cried the whole night when I found out about the sad news. I cried to sleep listening to D2B's songs. I cried to sleep wishing I could meet him in my dreams. I just want to see him one more time. I just want to smile at him one last time. But I know I can't...

 

07^th December 2009

Two years had passed. Deep in my heart, the scar is still freshly wounded. The fact that he left hurts me a lot. The fact that I am not able to meet him hurts me. I would cry when he crossed my mind. I would cry when his songs are played on iTunes. I would cry watching his last concert- Miracles. I would cry because even when you are not around, your songs linger around me. Your smiles would flash in front of my eyes. Your image keeps appearing in my dreams. You make me miss you even more. You make me want to turn back time so badly. You make me want to fly to Thailand hoping you weren't dead after all.

Screams For Your Return.   It was an odd day, Your face kept appearing, I know that deep in my heart, I'm missing you, crying.   I wish I could see you, Even for the last time, Let me see you, Just one more time.   Suddenly, The voice of your soul, Sings my lullaby, Happy to be near you, So glad that you lived, Though we've bade goodbye.   There isn't a day I never think about you. There isn't a moment that I don't miss you. There isn't a memory that left my mind. My heart is wishing you were never gone.   Though we've bade goodbye, I still miss you….   Chun ruk ter P'Big.