Goodbye, 2009!

Days toward the end of the year are coming fast enough to even realize them… Tests and assignments kept me busy from shopping and watching movies. January 2010 will be the end of Semester 1! The month where stress level will rise to its maximum so will my weight (sigh). The requirement is only to PASS. Should be easy to get there don't you think so? Yes, effort is a must and hard work pays it all. Insya-Allah, Ireland is a place where I will be at on September 2010.

Since beginning of this year, I thank God that everything turned out good despite few catfights, jealousy, sinfully delicious food consumption and etc. As a human, I do mistakes as well. I'm not perfect after all. I'm just a girl who tries to live her own life in peace and harmony with nature as well as with human beings. Just those human beings are annoying at times and that's when you're supposed to avoid them.

Let's see if I manage to pull it through those rough times:

1. Study hard for A-levelà Actually, I did study hard. Tuition almost every weekend. Probably my luck to go Ireland is not this year L Results: ABCC
   
2. Lose weightà I think I'm in the 50+ still =.=
   
3. Managed to watch Harry Potter 6 with Tiger.
   
4. New moon as well ^^
   
5. I didn't manage to go Ireland for 1^st year but Foundation Year, as Dr. Loo said was supposed to be a Fun Year J that's something good to hear.
   
6. So far, my relationship with Tiger went well and nothing seems to be much a problem except on his side.
   
7. To be 50kg! Ops, I said it again :)
   
8. The saddest part of all… I didn't get to watch KLWMBC. Wonder who won the best marching band for this year.hmm…
   
9. Learnt new moves and dance and I miss those moments dancing with Jeannie and Evelyn.
   
10. Huge fight with J… traumatized babe! Really…
    
11. BUT, I'm talking to Jeannie again! Bogoshipoyo~
    
12. I got A-levels Chemistry B. Hey, something that all of you should be proud of.
    
13. Penang is one of the most hated islands as I lost my iPod in one lousy library.
    
14. Oh right! On Valentine Day I met up with Sze Jian after one year! Honestly, he looked like Onew Shinee ok! Well, when he was tembam.
    
15. THE ANGRIEST MOMENT! - BROKE UP WITH TIGER AND THE NEXT THING I KNOW IS HE HOOKED UP WITH A BITCH! S.C.R.E.W HER!!!
    

Bleh, these are all I could think of. Honestly, a lot of dramas in 2009 that I would like to share with the whole wide world!

The gossips I've been through:

- KL and I are together. (How on earth?)

- have something to do with KTJ. Oh well, I think he's cute. Well, he is.

- Horrible fight with my ex-roommate and Faiz Halim which I think has no sense at all.

- In this one place, I think someone thought that I like this boy. Excuse me, do you want Tiger to eat you up?

See, I told you. Free drama for 2009! Amazing how one year can have many things happening without you realizing.

However, thank you for turning my life upside down. That's the fun part of it =)

I think it is time for me to welcome 2010- Tiger year! A year full of happiness, good wealth and good health.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!!!

IN LOVING MEMORY OF P’BIG D2B

BIG @ PANRAWAT KITTIKORNCHAROEN

1982-2007

02^nd December 1982

A star was born somewhere in a place called Bangkok, Thailand. He was tall, fair and had the sweetest face ever. When Dan & Beam discovered his hidden talent, they took him into a boy band called D2B which stands for Dan, Beam and Big. They were the teenagers' sweetheart lovers. With romantic songs and their charming looks you can never go wrong to love this boy band.

[ DAN – BIG – BEAM ]

Until the night in the year of 2003, heartbreaking news about P'Big- he was involved in a terrible accident. He went into coma for few years due to surgery complication in removing bacteria and fungus in the brain. Since then, people visited and prayed for him. I prayed for his comeback. I prayed that he could sing again. He could be on stage again. I prayed that one day I could meet him and smile at him.

For six years I have been putting high hopes, thinking P'Big is recovering every single day. For six years, every time I played their songs on iTunes, my heart would cry silently. When I watched their MVs, smiles and tears accompanied me through. Still hoping my wishes would come true.

 

07^th December 2007 (5 days after Big's birthday)

P'Big left the world. He left and will never return. My wishes crushed. My hopes had gone. I can no longer see him on stage. I can no longer hear him sing. No more smiles of his. No more laughter of his. No more that sweet face I have always wanted to touch.

P'Big, I miss you.

P'Big, I love you.

I cried the whole night when I found out about the sad news. I cried to sleep listening to D2B's songs. I cried to sleep wishing I could meet him in my dreams. I just want to see him one more time. I just want to smile at him one last time. But I know I can't...

 

07^th December 2009

Two years had passed. Deep in my heart, the scar is still freshly wounded. The fact that he left hurts me a lot. The fact that I am not able to meet him hurts me. I would cry when he crossed my mind. I would cry when his songs are played on iTunes. I would cry watching his last concert- Miracles. I would cry because even when you are not around, your songs linger around me. Your smiles would flash in front of my eyes. Your image keeps appearing in my dreams. You make me miss you even more. You make me want to turn back time so badly. You make me want to fly to Thailand hoping you weren't dead after all.

Screams For Your Return.   It was an odd day, Your face kept appearing, I know that deep in my heart, I'm missing you, crying.   I wish I could see you, Even for the last time, Let me see you, Just one more time.   Suddenly, The voice of your soul, Sings my lullaby, Happy to be near you, So glad that you lived, Though we've bade goodbye.   There isn't a day I never think about you. There isn't a moment that I don't miss you. There isn't a memory that left my mind. My heart is wishing you were never gone.   Though we've bade goodbye, I still miss you….   Chun ruk ter P'Big.