Confused mind after all.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately. Things that matter, things that don’t, things that not worth my attention, things that bothered me, things that I wish would happen and things that are probably useless but I can’t help not to think about them.

It’s rather amazing how your mind works. The words were to put into a sentence; plays a big role in portraying one self. A word or probably a sentence might just lash out the whole perception on someone. *sigh*

Isn’t it scary? Human?

What the mind thinks you will never know; judging from one’s action may somewhat describe what and how a person is. Then again, bias came in. In the end, there’s no definite conclusion as the world keeps revolving, people keep changing. Forgive and forget might be the only solution to protect one’s feeling. Then, comes equality, balance. Fairness. Memories, depression, sadness. Pretentious.

How complex a human being can be?

Even I myself sometimes confused with my own feelings.

At one point, I was brave and daring but at another point, I have the urge to protect myself from getting hurt. If I was to fall deeper, I know I don’t have the power to rise up again.

For example, love.

It’s sure nice to be in love, share the happiness with your partner, laugh together and so on but another heart break…?

No, I can’t go through that. *shudders* I’d rather eat my own self than going through another heart break even if it means one sided.

Here’s thinking I have a tough heart when the fact is… it’s too fragile. It’s been beaten and broken. Shattered and fixed again and obviously won’t be the same.

Another example, friendship.

Now that’s a long story to be told. Having friends to stab you in front hurts as much as they do even from behind. But why then, were they called friends? How could they?

PS: Didn’t I tell you? Humans are scary creatures.