Fire of boldness.

So it was finally said; the words I’ve been holding in. Felt like a huge burden was lifted off my shoulders. Just wanted it to be known and that’s it. I’m taking it alright but I have absolute no idea where the courage came from. *smiles*

『처음 널 만났을때, 우린 웃으면 인사했어요. 처음에는 내 가슴이 떨고있었어요. 내마음이 나도 모르겠어. 언제 부터 내가 너를 빠졌죠? 조금씩 더 , 나는 가까이다가서. 수없이 내맘이 나를 미치게. 하지만 지금 괜찮아요. 너의 이름 너의 추억 다 기억할게요. 고마워요 친구야 그동안 나는 행복하기도하고 너 때문에.』

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I was down with fever since yesterday morning. But I had to go and get the shopping done because after that I’m staying in till the day I fly to Malaysia. I know I have a lot to do; clean my room, pack my bags, arrange my closet, stack up the books, but with this fever and random attacks at my rib-sternum and rib-spine joints and now my left shoulder (still hurts now and then) I can’t really get things on time. I guess as long as I’m breathing, this chondritis will make its way throughout the whole body and I’m not surprised if that happens.

Just something I’ve been wondering, have I changed? But I don’t know who to ask to. People I’m surrounded with have constantly changed. Many have walked out, few stayed but farther than where I am. Even those who are close enough distant themselves.

I keep telling myself, it’s all going to be alright. It’s not the end yet because the end is the eternity life I shall encounter if not now, soon enough. I care about others too much that sometimes I forgot that I’m actually a person too; a girl with feelings. Wonder why didn’t I care about mine first? I’m no different than the others. Why didn’t I make myself a priority? Honestly, I don’t know either. I never thought of it. All I know is as long as they are happy I’ll be fine. As long as I’m the one who get hurt and not them, I’ll be fine.

PS: 잊지 말아요.